Forty Four.

I completely have no idea why I feel the way I do it is neither dramatically negative or dramatically positive, however in the middle. If thats possible. I am slowly realising that I am growing a short fuse. But I don’t show it when it reaches the end I just keep it in and then channel it in a odd way. I do not want to be here, I don’t want to be there, I don’t know where I want to be I just know that right now I do not want to be here. I feel like I need something new and filled with opportunities and I know this brings risk and uncertainty but I believe that I need that. I need a change.
It is also slowly dawning on me that my schooling is coming to a close and yes I know that I have 2 sets of exams and multiple assessments to get through first and I am not even wanting to think about that. But on the topic of school I did fairly well in my half yearly exams which I was happy with. I just now need to continue and better.